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Jason said; leave with a light heart, come back with a full bag filled with presents... & I did.

Happily, Joyously. I'm so glab i went for the trip. I hated the plane rides but i enjoyed the shopping. I came back an extremely happy girl. Before I left, I complete my entire DM and PLANNING within 1 day. Luckily it didn't require much thinking. I need to buy hay.

I wouldn't say Korea was fun. But I've gotten too used to that way of life, just mere 5 days there and I alrdy feel so forlorn in singapore. Even the way home from school seems so.. long. I guess this means 1 thing, I'm truely destined to study abroad. While in Korea, I thot of many things. Mainly what i wanted yet couldn't get. I kept asking if it's really for me.. Like that Han Najin in The Calligrapher's Daughter, should i learn to flow like water, or be rooted to the ground and fight for my own wants like the earth?

Jingwen told me today, I'm Cruel. It's the first time anyone ever said it to me.. I guess, cruelty is a special trait of the Li Family.

I have a few pictures of Korea, I'll post them up tgt with my baby; Raisin's. :D He grew so big while I was away, for 1 faint moment, i thot martin had killed my hammer and replaced it again. HAHAH... Childhood memories die hard don't they?

I always wondered why the hell does my keyboard feel so sticky after i wash my hands. Is my hands too clean? or is it just... dirty... Anyway! Olvl's coming soon.. Monday! & I am so darn excited bout it. :D I decided to really study for chinese. I'mma going to give it my all.. Then i can ditch the subject and study even harder for the rest of my subjects.

I'm rather happy in church now, suddenly. Camp's coming up. YAY! I used to hate church so much. Well, you'll only know how much it means to you after you've lost it. I'm so glad i have another chance at redeeming this.. lost. I am a Kitten. :D

Dad bought me a study table. A bigger incentive to study harder. I dun wanna push myself too hard.. But I study better under pressure. So.. Yeah.. Midyear sucked. I cant believed i actually studied for it.. because the results are so ugly, you just cry when you see it.. I hope i dun get into panel.. I know i've started too late in pulling my socks up. But well, better late than never. :D

I love my life now. It seems so carefree. But it only seems. I live each day without worries... Besides olvl and the restuarants and datelines and.. yeah.. nvm..

YOU KNOW WAD?

I'm happy and that doesn't happen all the time. :D It's rare, but it's a super good feeling. :D I dunno why. :D

Super super happy. :D

It's not fair. It's not fair at all. Everytime i seriously want something, I've to work like a crazy woman running for her life in the Empire State. I hate losing, but i despise the use of underhand methods too. So would someone tell me why the fuck am i so damn willing and desperate to jump the gun?

I have everything. Yet I have nothing. It's a simple logic. One that you have to study a bit just like literature to fully understand the underlying meanings. Fuck. Do i have to be such a step by step, just follow law just so people will see me?

Just fucking look at me. I'm what I am. This is what I've made myself to be.

I tried my hand at vlogging yesterday. Lorraine and I got too chirpy. But when i tried to upload it, it was too huge. The only available uploader was youtube and it took 228mins. So i gave up halfway.

Nothing fun's been going on. I guess my blog's dying. Someone, please give me a kick?